I overthink a lot. My mind is often clouded with thoughts and events that don’t even exist. A lot of days, I would find myself wondering and wandering— thinking about things that happened in the past while trying to figure out what might happen in the future. As time passes by, I didn’t notice that I’m loosing the bubbly, carefree spirit within me. Slowly, I become anxious about tomorrow that I forget how to live for today.
But life has its own way of teaching us lessons we need to learn. I suddenly stop thinking about anything one day. I realize that it is about time to bring back the smile and spark in my heart that I once lost. And that I can only do that by embracing where I am and what I have in the moment. I don’t have the power to change the past nor predict what the future holds… I only have today, and that alone is enough to focus on what it offers.
A lot of things that happened in the past has caused me to be wary. I’m not sure if I’m just protecting myself from being hurt or too focused in preparing for life’s surprises.
When I was young, I would always worry about waking up in the morning, going to school, and making friends with other students.
As a teenager, I would always think of ways how to have enough money to buy the books and clothes that I want.
My worries intensifies when I become an adult. Will I get married? Will I be able to build my dream house? Will I tick-off everything in my bucket list before my bones get weak and my hair turns grey? Sometimes, I would even worry with what to eat. You see? I worry about everything— and most of them are fleeting things.
Don’t get me wrong, I believe in saving for the future. I believe in chasing your dreams, working hard until your success makes noise, and that our time is limited to accomplish everything that we aim for. But then, there is a different kind of peace that can only be experienced by living at the present moment. There’s beauty in letting go and trusting that what’s bound to happen, regardless of how impossible or hopeless it may seem, will surely unfold its way.
Life has thought me that loathing gets you nowhere. There is no sense in worrying most especially when you have the capacity to change the situation. There’s no point of crying when you fail because you can always get up and try again. Stop thinking about what could have beens, maybe I shoulds, and what ifs. You only have enough strength for today and there is nothing more freeing than to take life as it is… imperfect, messy, unpredictable but oh so, beautiful.
I know that it’s not always easy to be at peace at the present moment when your job, family, and relationship demand more than what you can give. But you always have a choice to live in the now and make the most of it by realizing that there’s always, always something to be grateful for each day and you can make it as beautiful and happy as you want it to be.
I may not know what you’re going through right now, but I hope that as you read this, you find peace deep in your heart. A kind of peace that comes from submitting all your worries to God and believing that He makes miracles. I hope you find joy regardless of how hopeless you think your situation is. I hope you find love in what you do and that you become a blessing to others believing that just like you, today is a gift. Most of all, I hope you find life’s meaning as you celebrate each moment even if the future leaves you sleepless and wondering. I hope that no matter how blurry things right now, you’ll appreciate the beauty that each day holds for you.